Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came quick shocks, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with intense discomfort behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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